Yesterday, I felt my lips were super dry, and that really, really started to bug me. So, me being me, I started
obsessing focusing on that feeling of dryness and was thinking I should fix the lips, at the very least, hydrate them or put on some lipstick, something, anything. I looked everywhere for my Chapstick but could not find it. At this point, my head was doing the very loud nagging. I went to check in the mirror and they didn’t look chapped or even especially dry, but they sure felt dry, so I searched for lipstick and found a tube. Now, I haven’t used lipstick in more than 3 years, so I knew this lipstick was quite old. Whatever, it’s what I had and I used it. It looked AWFUL, and felt yucky, so I started wiping it off. It wouldn’t come off completely, just seemed to sink into the lines on my lips to accentuate the dryness. I took a rough washcloth and started rubbing it off with soap and water, vigorously. Hmmm, I could still see it, so I got some baby oil, applied it and rubbed some more. Still there. Got some Vaseline, applied that and rubbed some more. Now I see it below the bottom lip line. I’ve just managed to spread it. Crap. Put some type of facial cleanser (where did that come from? how old is this?) on the entire lip area, top and bottom. OW! Burning, stinging, WTF, this is like Noxema! Wet washcloth, add soap, lather and rub, rub, rub. OK…this freakin’ hurts, burns like a sunburn. Must stop now. Apply Vaseline again, this time to sooth the burning sensation.
(The following image may gross you out) it certainly grosses me out!
Woke up this morning with SWOLLEN lips, like I’d just had a collagen shot or something. Looked in the mirror and was majorly shocked at this image…it was reddish yesterday, but nothing even remotely looking like this!!!!
So, in my obsessed hyper focused mind, while I was doing whatever I could think of to remove the lipstick, I failed to feel the damage that I was doing to my lips, I did not see that what I thought was smeared lipstick was actually blood from the damaged burned raw skin beneath the bottom lip and even though I felt the stinging and burning of the facial cleanser, I did not stop trying to accomplish what I originally set out to do.
The experts say hyper focus can be used constructively and efficiently, allowing us ADDers to become “rock stars” in our pursuit of something that interests us. I say that hyper focus can HURT you, and here’s the proof! LMAO BTW, I found some antibiotic cream and applied that to prevent infection.
I also found the damn Chapstick.