As of yesterday afternoon my doctor ordered me off all medications for my “so-called ADD” (his words) to “get my brain back to its’ normal self” (again, his exact words.
While his insensitive barely concealed skepticism pushed my buttons, I was more than happy to let the ignorant remarks almost slide without launching into a tirade. I did say “your insensitive remarks about just having to try harder and referring to ADD as “so-called” would make a less confident person fall into harsh recriminations and eventually depression. Is that what you want?” This prompted him to pat my arm and apologize for hurting my feelings.
Bottom line is NO MORE MEDICATIONS for me! The side effects are too detrimental to my physical well-being and he is not comfortable with that.
Ha! Guess what? I’m not comfortable with that either.
While I am more than happy to lose the medication every single day of my life syndrome, it is not without a little trepidation I face the future. With the knowledge I now have and all the efforts I must put in to get a handle on my slight deficiencies I could easily get a little overwhelmed.
What else is new, right?
Here’s what’s new. I just don’t give a damn.
So I’m impulsive. Deal with it people. If I say something to offend you, and you bring it to my attention, I will apologize and charm you back into a good mood.
So I’m a little busy. Whatever. The only reason I come to this workplace is to work and get paid. I most definitely do not come here for the pleasure of anyone’s company. Deal with that!
So I’m a little noisy and intolerant of other people’s’ noise. I’m noisy because I am clumsy; constantly bumping into myself and the furniture and the walls can oftentimes be a little painful. The constant chatter, buzzing of the neon lights and numerous other distracting sounds coming at me from all directions impedes my ability to work. And remember, I am only here to work.
So I’m forgetful. Everything you and I need to get our jobs done is written down. All the instructions. All the answers to your questions. Stop asking me. I don’t have your answers. And yes, I will eventually remember your name. At least I recognize your face.
So I frustrate easily. This affects you how?
So I have little respect for authority. You get what you earn. I will not be bullied. If you don’t like it…OK I will definitely need to put more effort in biting my tongue on this one:)
So I’m a little moody. Right. I’m a lot moody. Don’t take it personally. It is more than likely I don’t even notice you are nearby. I frustrate myself and most of the time, if I am angry, it is at myself.
Don’t worry. If I am angry at you, I will make damn sure you are completely aware! There will be no need to guess on your part:)