I have been to more than my fair share of doctors over the long lifespan of my aches and pains. I am now 60 years old and have gained a profound skepticism towards the medical profession.
Since my teenage years I have taken my physical aches and pains with the attitude “ignore it and it will eventually go away”. Which of course is SO wrong.
Lesson #1: Ignoring your pain always allows it to grow stronger until it becomes impossible for you to pretend it does not exist. After all, pain is your body’s way of telling you there is something wrong.
Fast forward to my 40’s…that’s when things started getting too big to ignore. I actually spent the next 15 years running to doctors, therapists, treatment specialists, pretty much everything all those trained and educated physicians suggested. They all finished by saying this treatment is not working, take these antidepressants because you are suffering from clinical depression.I argued half-heartedly that I was not depressed, I kept saying there is nothing in my life to depress me and I am not feeling sadness, ever. I am just exhausted because I only can sleep an hour at a time!
So, half convinced they might be right, I took those meds and did not sleep any better.
I went on long-term sick leave from work for 2 years. Saw a psycologist, physio therapist, massage therapist, chiropractor, a few specialists. Not one of them came up with anything more helpful than the psycologist who remarked, after saying “I cannot help you,you really do not need my services,maybe you should look into fibromyalgia.” When I mentioned this to my doctor, he said”fibromyalgia does not exist”.
I shrugged tiredly and forgot all about it,
As I was just too damn tired to look into anything else, I quit.
I returned to work for another year, at which point I was so tired I couldn’t think straight or even care. I was eligible for early retirement at a ridiculous reduced monthly income but took it anyway.
To be continued…